lifeeee

Well no pictures this time...

just a fast update.

i hate talking about this but i think that i some how have to... this is my only way out cause i cry everytime i talk to someone seriously about it... i can handle the fast has anything changed but not the awful details.. i feel sooooo STUPID! cause there are soo many babies out there that are soo worse off and i know some to! but for me this is soo hard.... there is something new wrong everyday... and with her puking comes a what the doctors call a compermised (spelling i know but i cant figure it out sorry i hope you can figure it out) immune system. so my 6 month old has a immune system of about a 2 month old. hence she is sick almost every other week weather it be big or small... so not fun. but here is where we are at now.

Lillie got put on some meds, they are really strong and trevor and i are not having fun seeing our little girl take meds that they give to chemo patients! everytime i give it to her i almost cry. honestly i dont find it fair.. but oh well apparently doctors know best......? convinces? no im not...

anyways off topic. she has been on it for a week now... and it has honestly done nothing expect i have finally got to see what a grumpy and unhappy baby looks like... it sucks going from a almost always happy smiling or at least content baby to one that is miserable.. everyday.. she is puking just as much if not more. she has started on her 6 month solids... ex, chicken rice and veggies, or her seems to be fav beef with pasta and veggies... (she started the beginner ones when she was 3 months)

she pukes that up just as fast and easy as her formula... it is tough to watch my super healthy looking baby but actually not so healthy and not getting all the important nutrition that she needs.. she has broke 12 pounds and is a whopping 13.0..... she gain 1 pound in over 2 months... which is not what we nor the doctors like to hear.... or see.....

i hope that she gets rid of this soon.... and i dont know that they are going to try next... but for now i have to keep infecting her body with drugs.. for at least another week...

lilllie loves you all and so do we!

i go back to the doctor in a week.. i will update again.